OMG!! OML!!! STRANGE entry again

I don't understand people, no..wrong I have no social skills.Yup. I don't' have 'em.

I don't really know what should I ..know, what should I understand or how should i react or what should I say or ..and etc.

That's all.

Problems with communication..mebbe not ..dunno. whatever. what.

what?

what! 

Yup.

Today, today I am finally and officially tired of my Private Autumn. Went out for a dinner, we had..ehh crap I forgot what we had...wait lemme recall, oh right Japanese stuffs, I think I had garlic chicken , miso, salads , fruits, silver fish and hot sake, she had beef and similar stuffs. Then we went out to check TV sets. Nice, we checked and decided to get...an aircon. Yeah. We'll buy that aircon in the future. TV? what TV?

Later it was Japanese cafe (what else sighs), and I was enjoying super lovely coffee that had cost me...=.=" I think $3.80 or so. CHEAP anyway worth money. Rainy day, rainy night. Such a sorrow child I am...NOT!

I'm back to here again. Soon yet couple of days autumn will surrender to winter..and here in Singapore..nothing will change..nothing at all. How amazing =.=

Well I wanna be the first, and I'll say good bye to my private autumn. Bye., go away, hell ain't got no decent cafe in Singapore, so you are useless completely. Like paper shoes in rainy weather. Exactly.

 Time to explode. Time to ..raise hands ...yeah ya know how it goes already.

This scene setup i so BOHEMIAN, so drunk so ehh..NERDY i love it. I wanna get wasted same way like this dude Jason Donovan (guy playing with light switch and plastic cup), just i hope my "motor coordination" will be betta, dude shakes like with heavy parkinsons :)) (gawd he's so old O.o" she said, I agreed)..but heck who cares,

orgy people orgy,she doesn't love you? oh how sad, he left you cause he couldn't do better, she rejected you because you are just...and you you are jobless? and they dislike me because I didn't know?..aww OH MY LORD!...WHO CARES!!!! tears, laughter, soul is screaming, shouting ripping off da chest, baby wanna fly? Is there anyone else here who doesn't know? We're under fifteen feet of pure white snow....

Nick Cave & The Bad Seeds - Fifteen Feet Of Pure White Snow
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GET UP AND LISTEN VERY VERY LOUD
...and I want you now...

Silent "hello" from the ground. Autumn day 2 & 3

Yeah well, I'm back. I's 1:54am I can't sleep (nothing new aye).

I had a crazy day, slow but steadily crazy. I left my wallet behind only two times, 3rd time it was a false alarm, I left it at home. Average in norm, I'd say routine, forgetfulness, I go that since wee childhood. So yeah day like everyday. Almost. Pretty much autumn like weather, raining, heavily, they say cold (75.2F (24C) o.O lol yeah that is "cold" here, sadly it won't get hmm "colder" anymore :))

Been tryin' to use my phone for communication with a use of mobile yahoo messenger..hmph..OMG that is slooooow. got bored very fast. Forget it.

My phone was pretty silent today, happens more and more often. Oh well I know I know, its all my fault. Fine. Not a biggie its not some "course of Millhavaven" or such, just silence. No one miss me, like its only me...ehh. Alright next, well next was home...and there silence, AGAIN =.= OK quickly filled it with music, phew and 'twas already pretty much alright. My equipment is still dead so I just slacked around, washed dishes..erm mugs, showered and went online to check stuffs. Checked....and etc etc so on and on etc again and etc...blah. 

And now..seems..so silly. Just checked dump site, aww and yeah :( oh and what did i expect :| I'm so stupid sometimes.\=|

The kindness of strangers, life aye...

Autumn I think most fertile in poems season right after spring, or maybe even better that spring. One of the most "dramatic" months, soaked in tears and rain, rain of tears , tears of rain, all's wet and sad and so "aww" oh and sometimes pretty much revolutionary month (dig if ya curious). Funny is how crime rates falling down in autumn compared to summer or burglary loving winter. Strange. Should be opposite, human nature is STRANGE, officially, I find it STRANGE.

What.

Yup so there it is, bit of autumn in this weird STRANGE entry, I'm not expecting understanding really.

I don't fully understand myself.

What.

Oh yeah seriously brilliant movie, light stuff, lovely and full of ROCK'N'ROLL..girls and boys shoo to theaters to watch "The Ship That Rocked". Please do, yes you , you too, pls go and watch. Please?

And I'm already thinking of how am i gonna fill tomorrow..I mean today, with stuff "to not to think"..wait a minute I think..I..hmm what.

What?

What.

Oh OK.

There pretty much to pump up autumn's crime rate, a video clip, song from the album "Murder Ballads" by Nick Cave and PJ Harvey (oh this passion I guess its because they were an item once..probably that time, an dno she did not kill him for real, I guess it was someone else..), so here it is "Henry Lee".

uncanny.

what.

...

what

The Boat That Rocked

Autumn..autumn..naaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah I watched awesome movie. I feel great I like it I'm cool now I'm gonna watch again :| oh man I'm so so..hmmph =} I like it :D

Yup.

I do.

OK, autumn well I'll continue 'bout autumn tomorrow...maybe. 

Autumn cold, day one.

It's late autumn.
Autumn, the time of "the end" the time of good byes. The time of depressions, flu, rainy days, windy cold nights. Between lazy Summer and confused Winter, season like a funeral between life and life after death, that is if you believe in it...
To me, this used to be the worst season of 'em all. Now. But now I lost all of the seasons, and suddenly I felt strangely inadequate without Autumn...without autumn music, moods, melancholy of this season,  coffee and wine evenings with friends at cafe, returns home in windy, rainy weather, flu, muddy paths, parks patinated with broken gold and reds, walk home which slowly melts into grayed dirty days...

Because there's obvious autumn around me and in me...in this "seasonless" Singapore. Because so many unhappy souls, broken hearts, rain inside me and you... I decided I'll make my own autumn in my blog, with my old friend of my depressions (specially these Autumn Depressions) Nick Cave. "Enjoy" day one and hold on to yourself. 

a cartoon cartoon

Firstly, I’d like to thank everyone who takes the time to read this and I'd like to dedicate this cartoon to..myself.

Yup that's it, you're done reading this.

Sometimes I like Singapore.. :P

Watch carefully, this happened last Friday (23 October 2009) in the middle of usually "white collared" business district Raffles Place (smoking, meeting, chit-chat and waiting area). Watch till the end...

(silently weird ) Lack of happiness, noisy presence of unhappiness, figuratively boring life

Someone said "In this world there is nastiness derived from god knows where. you are not this",

you said "You are angry bastard" and you, yes you, said "You are weird".

I am weird angry bastard, not this.

When I suffer too much I'm locking myself inside. Like many others do. It is normal right?

When I'm confused. When I'm in doubt I'm silently here, but my doors are unlocked, just in case. Weakness, when I'm confused.

I'm shutting eyes, I don't care. Weird is good.

Down from the ceiling Drips great noise 
It drips on my head through a hole in the roof.  

Behind these two hills hereThere's a pool  

And when I'm swimming in through a tunnel
I shut my eyes

Message.

listen.

Anger is a GIFT.

I am angry,that's it.

Mr Nothing.

I am getting over it, with a help of vodka and beer. God bless me.

Fire, love and earthquake

I killed at least four texts already..this is my 5th attempt...

This is haunting me since yesterday...

"I tied myself with wire
To let the horses roam free
Playing with the fire
Until the fire played with me"

I could easily dedicate this to someone out there, but at this very moment I think I can relate this to my very own life.

.............................................................................

It was yesterday.

And today... Today I woke up to a very beautiful day. Simply. Without a warning, I had a beautiful child like dream. I don't remember having such beautiful dreams before...Well, I never had such beautiful dreams.

Strange.

Divine intervention maybe, maybe I didn't deserve all this what's happening to me lately or maybe i did, and today is like some sort of retribution package ...and now I wonder what is gonna happen next.

Earthquake struck Indonesia, and Singapore turned into a wobbly boat, it's a second time and now I was scared, it's definitely getting worse. This time it was hard to stop nausea, air was vibrating and floor turned into waving carpet... now to imagine how it was in Padang. Nothing serious in Singapore, we had a few minutes of spooks but there in Padang at least 200 people were killed* and thousands more trapped underneath the rubble... Every time earth tremble under my feet I think of those close to epicenter...
I'll stop here for tonight, I think getting personal now would be of a bad taste.
good night.

*more than 1,000 feared dead (1 am local time)

random ramblings RA-RA or "I don't feel like writing"

OK no F1 cause I'm too lazy, was cool was super hyper noisy and i liked.
Its over now, Singapore govs are sick to the head, they blocked track in case someone could peek for free, very noble..paranoid people.
That's all about F1. Next time I'm gonna pay for tickets (Economy fare-KLM) to Monaco to watch them for free while sippin' some good coffee or wine or both with someone, the best someone with initials LC cause safest :)).
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And here's my phone..so go figure... I will change it one day I think...